Day#164: Radio Silence, Pushing Myself

Last weekend was supposed to be Round1 of Rock Climbing. Unfortunately My crazy friend Jane, who was going to take me twisted her ankle, so we've pushed it a week... Meaning I have just a few days till that happens. (crossing my fingers that stays the plan).

Due to this arrangement shift, I decided to still push myself that morning with a hike. I roped my brother and his adorable wife into joining me.

Before the Hike, all ready to go!

(see the red line, that's where we went...) In total we figured it was about 3 miles, but with lots of incline I felt sufficiently proud of myself. :)

All the way at the top, all sweaty and happy!

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I know it's been a long hiatus, and that my posts have become less and less frequent. Honestly I was feeling disappointed in myself for a variety of reasons, the main one being that weight loss has slowed. It's still going but just not at the pace that it was. It can be hard to see myself loose momentum. It gets me emotional and makes me want to quit sometimes.

But I haven't quit. I won't let myself go back to where I was. It's not going to happen (shakes head) no freaking way!!! <---- see three exclamation marks means business ;)

So... Here's what's been going on since radio silence 20 days ago:

Been getting into things now with my new trainer Tyler. I like him more now that I've gotten used to his style. It's challenging, but I think that's good for me. Honestly I need to be pushed and held accountable, and he's not going to go easy on me. True I've had more injuries since having him as a trainer than I have since I started this journey, but I'm going to chalk that up to me being a poor communicator more than anything.

I've got to learn when to say "No that's not something I can do yet..." and "I can push myself in this way but not in this other way right now..." I'm learning that I can't rely on him to know what is too much and what isn't challenging enough for me unless I tell him. But I suspect that'll get better as things go on. I'm trying not to be too discouraged by the lack of movement in my weight... Trying to remind myself that muscle weighs more than fat and that I'm really gaining muscles right now. My arms have never looked so good!

I do not like Squats or lunges... I suppose that's a sign that I should do more of them. Last week I pulled a muscle in my groin while doing squats and have only done squats a couple times after that since it hurt to bend that way... Rolling on my burnt tootsie roll helps some but I feel like I'm giving myself bruises more than anything. Hurmmm... (thoughtful expression).

Since rock climbing has moved to the 6th, I'm getting myself psyched for that, remembering that I can do hard things and that just because I held myself back in the past doesn't mean I can't do hard things now if I push myself. Ironic that its' harder to remember these things in the moment huh.

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Thought I'd remind myself of where I've been and how things are going and it has given me a boost. I went and dug up my computer screen shots from my first week and put them side by side with some new ones that I took today... My slightly scandalous arms are showing, viewer beware ;)

Front

Side

It's crazy to see where I've been and where I am now! I need to just keep pushing forward. Seeing these pictures really helps me remember how far I've already come. That's a huge motivator! It's a big deal when you can go from scowling or making faces to smiling in comparison pictures right?!? That's what I'm going to say anyway ;)

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SweatySelfie Catchup!

(Today's Pic)

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Bonus, Since Loosing weight finding which of my clothes actually fit anymore has been a frustrating but fun daily activity... The other week I put this top back on after not wearing it for a few months and it fit so much better than it ever did before, it was such a cool feeling wearing it again and feeling pretty and proud of myself for rocking it...

Keep Fighting the good fight. Today is gone, tomorrow I can only do better right? ;)

ColorRun is in just 18 Days, That should be fun. I'm feeling confident that I can walk it no biggie at all. I just have to decide if I'm going to walk it all or jog part of it. These are the tough decisions right?