I'm so excited to share with you guys, my success of reaching 50 lbs. That's half way to my 100 lbs weight loss goal. AHHHHH! I can't believe it, that's so crazy!
All the hard work i've put in is paying off! It sure doesn't seem worth it some days when i'm eating like a bird or eating boring food when I'd rather be eating cheesecake. But today it feels amazing! It feels like I can do anything, even loose the next 50 lbs! One day at a time!
Awhile back I put on my cute little black dress to show off how much progress I was making, and I thought it'd be interesting to see that picture next to me in that same dress now!
Me in the black dress back in March
And me now, Here in October!
Even I looked at it and was like "HOLY CRAP? I look awesome!" **blush**
I can't thank everyone enough for how supportive they've been of my weight loss journey. Its a struggle every day and every day is it's own little battle. Some times you loose and sometimes you totally crush it! I think the number one thing I've learned is this:
There are always going to be people out there who try and bring you down, try to belittle your accomplishments by comparing you to them or others... Your success isn't dependent on anyone, measured by anyone else's success... you can do hard things and your hard things are never going to look the same to someone else or feel the same to someone else as they do to you. It's a struggle fighting for anything, particularly when it's something that you want very much.
When I started this whole thing. I walked into the gym to get a membership and the guy helping me out asked me a question. "What is it you most want out of this?" I remember breaking down, saying "I want to feel better."
Not only for my health, that was a huge factor, but also feel better about myself. I've gone through so many years hating myself for how I look, how I feel and how many times i've failed. It's true that the worst critic the most damaging voice is your own. I know that first hand.
We're told to say kind things to others, to be nice. But I don't think we remember often enough to be kind to ourselves. I'm making a personal goal to change my internal voice. To stop saying mean and hurtful things about myself and to instead replace it with "You are awesome", "You are beautiful", "You are loved", and "You can do hard things."
I'm not going to let others or my own internal voice bring me down, I'm going to fight like crazy to remember I'm worth it!
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In other news...
I don't know how, but I convinced a gaggle of coworkers old and current to join me in an after-work rock climbing adventure last Wednesday, but I did. HA!
I forgot to snap a picture of our entire group before people took off, but there were 7 of us total. Gwen, Kaiser, Brittney, and myself... pictured below, plus Parrin & Jamison and his wife.
It was a blast, I can't believe that so many people came to rock climb. I just love it! I didn't get to climb as much as I would have liked, but that's alright it was still amazing as always!
I've admitted that I freaking love rock climbing. Which is crazy because the very idea of it used to terrify me and paralyze me from going more than a foot off the ground. I'm addicted, and every time I go I feel so accomplished and so charged with confidence. Not only that it's also a work out! :) bonus.
Still looking for more friends who want to get rock climbing! wink wink... hint hint...
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Life is good! :)
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