Color Run, only 79 days away people!
So got a text from Kendra today; (which I had off from work... That was a lucky stroke, I had to finish my sign in book so it gave me the hours I needed in order to not pull a all nighter. #blessings) In the message from Kendra she asked me if I'd be willing to be part of a work out group today. This would mean that we'd get a whole hour instead of the half an hour session for the same price we normally pay. I wasn't super jazzed about it, but I agreed anyway.
So Got to the gym just a tad late and jumped into this group madness. There were two other ladies in the group, I was relieved to see that they were both about as heavy as me, albeit they seem to be a bit further along in their strength training. It's hard not to compare yourself to someone else when working out in a group like that. I admit it readily. I was discouraged... I felt like the other two ladies were way stronger and had more endurance than I do at this point.
I don't think that I like group work outs... they make me feel frustrated and I push myself way harder than I think I should... pretty sure I twisted my ankle. I don't know how to really feel about it... Apparently the Gym is pressing their trainers to do more group work out sessions. I got really territorial of my work outs. I don't want to be lost in a group, to not have the one on one that I really feel like I need to keep me motivated and accountable.
I told Kendra that I'd basically be okay with doing a group work out every so often but not every day because I need that one on one. Hopefully she can make sure that's what happens. I don't have anything against these other ladies I just worry that it'll be a reason for me to not want to work out; I don't need any more of those - Lets be honest here!
We'll see how that unfolds.
Kendra took us through three sets during the work out, we did planks, squats, pushups, TRX, balance and lunges. Then in the last set, she had us do the assisted pull up machine. (can I tell you, my heart dropped, it dropped further when she said that she wanted each set (we'd do two) we needed to get 10-12 reps. Guys I nearly cried there in front of the other ladies in the group. I've only just started this machine, and it's really really hard for me.
Last time I did the assisted pull up machine I could only do 4 reps in a set... Today I did 10 in my first set and 5 in the second. How can I feel like such a failure when that's more than dubbed what I got just two days ago? How can I feel like I let myself and Kendra down? SIGH!!!! Once again, I'm really good about self-hating myself over something that I shouldn't. I recognize it as what it is. I know it's silly to feel that way. I just have to try, that's all I can do. Right? (wheeps silently).
FYI: when you sweat like me during a work out, your tears blend right in... BONUS! :(
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"I'm a little stronger each day, even if it doesn't happen as fast as I wish it could."
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Update in my freelance project for my friend Cambry: It looks awesome. ALL DONE! Check it!
So I did this really cool technique, this thin paper with a raised texture was added after the pink layer. it takes extra long because you have to glue it down just right, tapping it with a slightly glue coated brush. The pink underneath comes through and looks like a really cool lace effect. The raised texture is super yummy! Love it.
You can see where I put in spacers between the later pages so that they can be used for scrap booking without the causing the pages to bow or budge when the images are added. (that's the hope anyway)
Glad to have the project done. It turned out super cute. Yay! Love a good hands on crafty project. Reminds me how much I enjoy seeing what I can do with my hands. Physically building a book from scratch is super rewarding.
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