This thing isn't easy. Far from it. I'm not good 100% or even 50% of the time. But I can only try and be better. I just have to stay motivated. Since my last post though I've found very little that I wanted to share, it's the kind of thing... you want to only share the good stuff the progress - the monumental weight loss... it feels good to get support when you have something good to share. Not so much when you don't.
Two weeks ago Kendra gave her 2 weeks notice. She's been feeling under appreciated by management and under paid for the degree she has. With the commute and the politics, Kendra has decided to leave. I'm happy for her moving on from a situation that wasn't good for her; but man am I selfishly bummed. Totally and irrevocably miserably depressed with the situation that it poses for me. The key word being selfish. I know that i'm being selfish... but lets be honest this whole weight loss journey has been a selfish one; and that's got to be fine... It had to be my choice it had to be something I decided to do for myself so it stands to reason that my reaction is selfish. After all, that's all I've been doing lately, been focusing on myself.
So, that meant that today was my last session with Kendra before she no longer works at my gym. She's gone and I'm sad. Another situation where it's good that a sweat so much, it hides those tears ;)
Finally snapped a photo of the wonderful lady. #sweatyselfie with the wonderful lady that's been my anchor, my accountability person for the past 4 months! I'm going to miss her terribly.
I don't know who my next trainer will be, someone Kendra has recommended take me on, but who can tell what that will mean. Got to start again, maybe it'll be good to be accountable to someone new. I'm just scared, I got comfortable with working out with Kendra, I felt safe. Getting someone new, is scary. Crossing my fingers and praying that it works out.
I still plan on pestering Kendra and sending her updates. She's not getting away from me that easy ;) Sucks to be her! I'm going to annoy the crap out of her - nobody makes friends with me and just disappears... Right? Right...
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This week is the week i've been lovingly referring to as "The week of Hell" because there's so much adulting been going on this week that it's hellish. I'm a keen observer of the avoidance maneuver and to do so much adulting in one week makes me anxious to the max. However I'm happy to report that I've survived:
Monday - Major Photoshoot at work and Doctor's appointment after work.
Tuesday - Major Photoshoot at work round2 and hour long training with Kendra.
Wednesday - Dentist Appointment 2 with Root Canal.
Thursday - Last training session with the best Trainer in the world! :(
I survived...
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Other Highlights... My Brother-In-Law Scott had his birthday and we got to celebrate at Boondocks with him and his friends. It was a lot of fun! What a great Guy, I'm so glad he's part of my family and that he loves my sister Autumn so much. What a blessing.
Snapped a pic of my sisters during all the fun.
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Catch-Up on #sweatyselfies:
Yes I did really well these past two weeks with working out, unfortunate that my weight loss has flatlined... but still it's an accomplishment all the same right?
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This weekend is the 4th, I'm mentally making a goal to eat no surgery treats... I've got to step up my game! hit the ground running with this new trainer.... whoever they are. Also have a family reunion, that should be fun. There's going to be swimming, so it'll be my first time back in my new swimsuit since Disney World. Should be good. And life goes on... And I've got to keep moving. Got to make myself and Kendra Proud; can't give myself a reason to quit. Just got to make things happen. Do my best and forget the rest.
Rock Climbing is in a month! Ahhhh! only one month left to train for it.
Two months to the Color Run.
Three months till Rock Climbing Round2.
Meh- I feel like my body flatlines a lot when it comes to losing weight. It's almost like it loses a bunch because it goes into emergency mode when I start exercising, discovers that this is actually a long-term thing and then decides that it can't live without the weight. But then it discovers a couple of months later that it can. Don't worry about that.
ReplyDeleteThanks Chrisanne, Its hard to see your weight rise or flatline... It's something I've got to lessen in importance over all. I mean doing anything is better than nothing. got to be okay with progress even if it's not on the scale. ;) Love you lady. Thanks for the encouragement.
DeleteI am sad about your trainer. She sounds like everything I always wanted... :)
ReplyDeleteYes, I'll miss Kendra a ton. She's amazing!
DeleteSwitching things up can be a very good thing to keep weight loss going. Loosing Kendra might be a very sad blessing in disguise. Keep going! You are an amazing example!
ReplyDeleteThanks Amber, your probably right about that! :)
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